Things are going

It's took what feels like along time, but things are finally starting to happen. We have pushed for his doctor to do the hearing test at the hospital just to make sure his little ears are fine. We met his teacher and will start home visits soon. After a few weeks we are going to start classes. We are all excited about this.

It's hard to explain to people that have shown no support. I feel like i have to defend us when we are around them. I feel like I am fighting these "family" members to prove that this is real. So many people don't realize what we are going through.

I have been looking for something to blame, Some reason behind all this. For some reason it has been killing me. Not knowing what causes this. I know its such a mystery in its self. No one can give us a answer to what caused our little boy to be autistic.. Was it shots? Was it the wreck? Is it the foods he eats? Is it something i have done? Who knows?

Now thinking this over and over and trying to play out every step of the past few years in my head I am at lost. I really don't know what has caused it, But now I'm starting to realize, It doesn't matter what caused it, All that matters is I have this little boy that I love more then life and I have to fight for him. I have to fight for his rights. I have to push for his needs I have to be his advocate! And that is what I am.